Time heals, time congeals around us
Endless hours of wasted moments
Understanding, not demanding
Your eyes tell what you feel inside

The Patient.

. A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful. Is this a test ? It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on. Draining patience. drain vitality. this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old. But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here. I'm gonna wait it out If there were no rewards to reap, no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. I'm gonna wait it out.
I still may. And I still may.
Be patient. I must keep reminding myself of this...
If there were no rewards to reap, no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. And I still may. And I still may. And I still may. I'm gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.

-

. Staring down the hole again.
Hands upon my back again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come.

. Just remember I will always love you,
Even as I tear your fucking throat away.
But it will end no other way.

Forty-Six & 2.

. My shadow's

Shedding skin and

I've been picking

Scabs again.

I'm down

Digging through

My old muscles

Looking for a clue.

. I've been crawling on my belly

Clearing out what could've been.

I've been wallowing in my own confused

And insecure delusions

For a piece to cross me over

Or a word to guide me in.

I wanna feel the changes coming down.

I wanna know what I've been hiding in

. My shadow. My shadow.

Change is coming through my shadow.

My shadow's

Shedding skin

I've been picking

My scabs again.

. I've been crawling on my belly

Clearing out what could've been.

I've been wallowing in my own chaotic

And insecure delusions.

. I wanna feel the change consume me,

Feel the outside turning in.

I wanna feel the metamorphosis and

Cleansing I've endured within

. My shadow. My shadow.

Change is coming.

Now is my time.

Listen to my muscle memory.

Contemplate what I've been clinging to.

Forty-six and two ahead of me.

. I choose to live and to

Grow, take and give and to

Move, learn and love and to

Cry, kill and die and to

Be paranoid and to

Lie, hate and fear and to

Do what it takes to move through.

. I choose to live and to

Lie, kill and give and to

Die, learn and love and to

Do what it takes to step through.

. See my shadow changing,

Stretching up and over me.

Soften this old armor.

Hoping I can clear the way

By stepping through my shadow,

Coming out the other side.

Step into the shadow.

Forty six and two are just ahead of me.

. y para qué la voy a caretear ? nunca me gustó resaltar ni diferenciar de ningún modo las partes de una canción [ cuando la escribo completa ] que más me gustan o me pegan, como diciendo: hijo de puta, es lo que me pasa/siento/me pica en el dedo gordo del pie derecho(?)
como verán que hice hace unos días.
=/

H.

What's coming through is alive.

What's holding up is a mirror.

But what's singing songs is a snake

Looking to turn my piss to wine.

.

They're both totally void of hate,

But killing me just the same.

.

The snake behind me hisses

What my damage could have been.

My blood before me begs me

Open up my heart again.

.

And I feel this coming over like a storm again.

Considerately.

.

Venomous voice, tempts me,

Drains me, bleeds me,

Leaves me cracked and empty.

Drags me down like some sweet gravity.

.

The snake behind me hisses

What my damage could have been.

My blood before me begs me

Open up my heart again.

.

And I feel this coming over like a storm again now.

And I feel this coming over like a storm again now.

.

I am too connected to you to

Slip away, fade away.

Days away I still feel you

Touching me, changing me,

.

Considerately killing me.

Considerately killing me.

Considerately killing me.

.

Without the skin here,

Beneath the storm.

Under these tears now,

The walls came down.

.

And as the snake is drowned

And as I look in his eyes,

My fear begins to fade

Recalling all of those times.

.

I could have cried then.

I should have cried then.

.

And as the walls come down

And as I look in your eyes

My fear begins to fade

Recalling all of the times

I have died

and will die.

It's all right.

(I don't mind)

I don't mind.

I don't mind.

I don't mind.

.

I am too connected to you

Slip away, fade away.

Days away I still feel you

Touching me, changing me,

.

Considerately killing me.

Considerately killing me and

Considerately killing me.

. [ ♪ ]

Theres a shadow just behind me...

. I am just a worthless liar.
. I am just an imbecile.
. I will only complicate you.
. Trust in me and fall as well.